ExplosivePoop
Member
[To: Armageddon, Arch, Nept -- ?+---> everyone else whose names have had hostility towards me and others on grounds of a childish bias, names who hold no place, no right to room in my memory.]
When, in the case that a select few of you don't like somebody (I.E., Whitehawk, Bestking, me etc.), you bash them, call them names, disrespect them, and gather the cheers of your childish "bros" around you. I do not approve of these behaviors (nor do new members whom I have spoken to over TS3 and IRC; they despise such actions). It is not me. No, it is you. I had a mac port to offer: something none of you had figured out so far (which warrants that I am more apt at porting programs and games than the community as a whole, yet you treat me as refuse); I came back with a kind and forgiving outlook: qualities which said community lacks, on majority. While there are indeed many personable figures in said community, the rest tend to hold a hostile attitude towards people who aren't their "bros" or "frats", or whatever you cool college-level people say. You say I'm immature; yet, as if to spite yourself in stinging irony, you handle disagreement and opposition with the worst possible methods.
I am sorry to say that I simply cannot and will not release my mac port, for several reasons:
1. The general consensus in said community is that Macs are irrelevant to work, gaming, and life in general.
2. The majority of said community holds a hostile, biased attitude towards mac users.
3. I have tried my best to stay calm and act accordingly; however, it seems either you or I are/am speaking a foreign language.
No matter what I say or do, no matter which 'angle' [so to speak] I confront said community, I meet discordial and rude members with a tendency towards hostility.
4. The bias against me and other players -- albeit and illogical and mob-mentality based one at that -- disgusts me. No person should ever have to suffer such insults and fire from a community. Perhaps the only issue which disgusts me more is the fact that you still expect new players to join said community.
You, a community - as a whole -, are not approachable. One hostile person versus one cordial person is like pitting a lion against a mouse. People notice the rudeness, and fixate their minds on that, causing them to come away with the idea that this is an elitist community. Thus, as my parting word, I highly suggest -- no, I mandate -- that you, as a community, rethink your approachability; you never know when you have driven away someone who seriously considered donating large amounts of money to keep the servers up. Cough.
I thought long and hard about my time here. The way I am treated here is not my fault; No, it is not my fault. Yes, I was immature before I left for the first time (due to misfortunes suffered by me thanks to people like you), but I have grown, learned many lessons and will continue to learn valuable bits of wisdom, and now, I know enough to stand up and tell people like you to stop in your tracks and rethink the way you treat others. I know I cannot change any of you - and I HAVE had a few good experiences here - but I do not wish to. The day will come when you lose your community, lose your goals and aims, and lose sight of what you (and I as well) had originally set out to do.
I would wish you all the best of luck, but I would regret taking such action later, as your attitude towards people outside of your cliques do not warrant such a phrase.
I had been bullied physically, mentally, via text, e-mail, facebook, tormented, had things stolen from me (including grades I had worked my fingers off for), had my car keyed, windows smashed, house spray-painted, and been shut down by nearly all of the kids in my neighoborhood AND teachers at the highschool I attended; all this, for the entirety of 9th grade. Such is the American public education, and as such are you. Because of the hellhole of freshman year, am highly tolerant of obnoxious and hostile people. This is not a sobstory. I am not asking for pity. No, I am showing you all that it is indeed you - it is not me. If it were me, I would have left long ago.
Do not mock and jeer at me when I leave; you will not receive a mac port; you will not receive a realism mod; you will not receive a tidy sum of money, a collective donation from 5 buddies of mine and I. Do not mock and jeer; you will have realized the loss, and the losses to come.
I understand that many of you will dismiss this note as immature and time-wasting; however, I hold sympathy for those of you I have listed. You show no capacity to hold compassion; never have I known what is feels like to possess a cold, dead heart.
Though I have listed three members specifically, hear this and take it to heart: names I would list - but shall not, in order to shorten said note by a page and a half - are not sparse in my mind.
It stands as that these collections of points are the very things which I despise and condemn with such a hatred previously unknown to me, a person of will and rigor. Despise and condemn.
I wish luck not to you [all], but instead to new members, so that they might hold higher tolerance for such childish and time-wasting behaviors.
~sky
When, in the case that a select few of you don't like somebody (I.E., Whitehawk, Bestking, me etc.), you bash them, call them names, disrespect them, and gather the cheers of your childish "bros" around you. I do not approve of these behaviors (nor do new members whom I have spoken to over TS3 and IRC; they despise such actions). It is not me. No, it is you. I had a mac port to offer: something none of you had figured out so far (which warrants that I am more apt at porting programs and games than the community as a whole, yet you treat me as refuse); I came back with a kind and forgiving outlook: qualities which said community lacks, on majority. While there are indeed many personable figures in said community, the rest tend to hold a hostile attitude towards people who aren't their "bros" or "frats", or whatever you cool college-level people say. You say I'm immature; yet, as if to spite yourself in stinging irony, you handle disagreement and opposition with the worst possible methods.
I am sorry to say that I simply cannot and will not release my mac port, for several reasons:
1. The general consensus in said community is that Macs are irrelevant to work, gaming, and life in general.
2. The majority of said community holds a hostile, biased attitude towards mac users.
3. I have tried my best to stay calm and act accordingly; however, it seems either you or I are/am speaking a foreign language.
No matter what I say or do, no matter which 'angle' [so to speak] I confront said community, I meet discordial and rude members with a tendency towards hostility.
4. The bias against me and other players -- albeit and illogical and mob-mentality based one at that -- disgusts me. No person should ever have to suffer such insults and fire from a community. Perhaps the only issue which disgusts me more is the fact that you still expect new players to join said community.
You, a community - as a whole -, are not approachable. One hostile person versus one cordial person is like pitting a lion against a mouse. People notice the rudeness, and fixate their minds on that, causing them to come away with the idea that this is an elitist community. Thus, as my parting word, I highly suggest -- no, I mandate -- that you, as a community, rethink your approachability; you never know when you have driven away someone who seriously considered donating large amounts of money to keep the servers up. Cough.
I thought long and hard about my time here. The way I am treated here is not my fault; No, it is not my fault. Yes, I was immature before I left for the first time (due to misfortunes suffered by me thanks to people like you), but I have grown, learned many lessons and will continue to learn valuable bits of wisdom, and now, I know enough to stand up and tell people like you to stop in your tracks and rethink the way you treat others. I know I cannot change any of you - and I HAVE had a few good experiences here - but I do not wish to. The day will come when you lose your community, lose your goals and aims, and lose sight of what you (and I as well) had originally set out to do.
I would wish you all the best of luck, but I would regret taking such action later, as your attitude towards people outside of your cliques do not warrant such a phrase.
I had been bullied physically, mentally, via text, e-mail, facebook, tormented, had things stolen from me (including grades I had worked my fingers off for), had my car keyed, windows smashed, house spray-painted, and been shut down by nearly all of the kids in my neighoborhood AND teachers at the highschool I attended; all this, for the entirety of 9th grade. Such is the American public education, and as such are you. Because of the hellhole of freshman year, am highly tolerant of obnoxious and hostile people. This is not a sobstory. I am not asking for pity. No, I am showing you all that it is indeed you - it is not me. If it were me, I would have left long ago.
Do not mock and jeer at me when I leave; you will not receive a mac port; you will not receive a realism mod; you will not receive a tidy sum of money, a collective donation from 5 buddies of mine and I. Do not mock and jeer; you will have realized the loss, and the losses to come.
I understand that many of you will dismiss this note as immature and time-wasting; however, I hold sympathy for those of you I have listed. You show no capacity to hold compassion; never have I known what is feels like to possess a cold, dead heart.
Though I have listed three members specifically, hear this and take it to heart: names I would list - but shall not, in order to shorten said note by a page and a half - are not sparse in my mind.
It stands as that these collections of points are the very things which I despise and condemn with such a hatred previously unknown to me, a person of will and rigor. Despise and condemn.
I wish luck not to you [all], but instead to new members, so that they might hold higher tolerance for such childish and time-wasting behaviors.
~sky
