On the other hand I have to say that if there were any problems between members in our clan you were always a part of it. Maybe it's only me, but I have the feeling that you are someone who easy becomes provoked and also that you often don't understand that you are hurting ppl with that what you say or how you act. In my opinion you have to learn that you are not the only human in the world. What I still don't understand is why you still search for the faults which others maybe did and not asking yourself why you are in this for you a bit difficult situation.